it's been a long time....

So I have taken an unexplainable hiatus but am back like cooked crack! During my break I have been doing a hellovalota thinking.

1. Shit really is easier said than done. You can hype yourself up for a multitude of things but just saying it doesn't get the shit done. I am currently on academic probation and have really been trying to figure out a way to get the type of grades i got in highschool (consistent "A's" and "b's" few c's). I tell myself I am going to study more, seek out a tutor and ask way more questions is class. I do believe words are power though. so with that being said i will religiously tell myself like everyday that I am a successful black student/ ambitious future legit money maker...

2. Im in new york as we speak and i need the confirmation that it don't matter where u from it's where u at. Just getting off the bus i got no strange stares from anyone. by looking at my attire people cant tell im from "D.C". I hate the fact that people judge your before you even open your mouth. By me always having a negative response to the question where you from, i realized i connect with people on a non-local level. If i maintain this attitude i should have no issue with breaking ice with people. During this visit i plan on meeting a few people without ever mentioning me being a visitor.

3. My little brother is growing up fast as hell! so I pick this 9 year old up from tae kwon do practice and he tell's me he broke up with his girl. LLS. For real i don't know why i find this funny cus i had a "girl friend" at 9 as well. but what the hell do u and ur girlfriend do pre puberty stages? But i guess it's because i barely remember being 9 and know i was way less active than my lil brother. chess club, tae kwon do, basketball, baseball, a dog, geography bee, 3rd place science project, all the jay's... i guess life is more balanced with both parents and a older brother in the household. 11 years older then isaac, I look at my brother and envision the type of childhood i want for my future children.

4. Inauguration is going to be fucking hectic! i still plan on being in attendance with the other like 2 million folks. Today a cab driver told me there's supposed to be over 8000 limos driving around and like a section of the city designated for private jet landing..damn, history in the making but im not trying to get my young ass trampled..lls

5. i guess 5 is a safe number to stop at. basically life is short. I am trying to develop a philosophy on life that mimics that of the yes man. lol. I aint gonna say yes to any dumb senseless shit, but why pass up opportunity. If anything try new shit, see where it takes u that way you can at least say, "well i did that and....." ive also been thinking bout living my life like a movie. What would i like to see on the screen if i was the main character?? who would i associate myself with? what type of situations would i avoid or try to be put in?