it's been a long time....

So I have taken an unexplainable hiatus but am back like cooked crack! During my break I have been doing a hellovalota thinking.

1. Shit really is easier said than done. You can hype yourself up for a multitude of things but just saying it doesn't get the shit done. I am currently on academic probation and have really been trying to figure out a way to get the type of grades i got in highschool (consistent "A's" and "b's" few c's). I tell myself I am going to study more, seek out a tutor and ask way more questions is class. I do believe words are power though. so with that being said i will religiously tell myself like everyday that I am a successful black student/ ambitious future legit money maker...

2. Im in new york as we speak and i need the confirmation that it don't matter where u from it's where u at. Just getting off the bus i got no strange stares from anyone. by looking at my attire people cant tell im from "D.C". I hate the fact that people judge your before you even open your mouth. By me always having a negative response to the question where you from, i realized i connect with people on a non-local level. If i maintain this attitude i should have no issue with breaking ice with people. During this visit i plan on meeting a few people without ever mentioning me being a visitor.

3. My little brother is growing up fast as hell! so I pick this 9 year old up from tae kwon do practice and he tell's me he broke up with his girl. LLS. For real i don't know why i find this funny cus i had a "girl friend" at 9 as well. but what the hell do u and ur girlfriend do pre puberty stages? But i guess it's because i barely remember being 9 and know i was way less active than my lil brother. chess club, tae kwon do, basketball, baseball, a dog, geography bee, 3rd place science project, all the jay's... i guess life is more balanced with both parents and a older brother in the household. 11 years older then isaac, I look at my brother and envision the type of childhood i want for my future children.

4. Inauguration is going to be fucking hectic! i still plan on being in attendance with the other like 2 million folks. Today a cab driver told me there's supposed to be over 8000 limos driving around and like a section of the city designated for private jet landing..damn, history in the making but im not trying to get my young ass trampled..lls

5. i guess 5 is a safe number to stop at. basically life is short. I am trying to develop a philosophy on life that mimics that of the yes man. lol. I aint gonna say yes to any dumb senseless shit, but why pass up opportunity. If anything try new shit, see where it takes u that way you can at least say, "well i did that and....." ive also been thinking bout living my life like a movie. What would i like to see on the screen if i was the main character?? who would i associate myself with? what type of situations would i avoid or try to be put in?

*Eye Candy*- kerry washington

so bad...

If I was born like 30 something years earlier

I don't know if I'm alone here but sometimes i wish i was born during a different decade. For one even though i was born in the 80's I cant even claim being a child of the 80s, i caught the tail end of that shit. 90s is cool though but i just feel like we don't have a movement. Those born in the early 80's really had rap. like the real rap, big daddy kane's, biz markies, rakims, etc. Those born in the early 70's grew up with cool ass hippie parents. disco was still in people getting hella rich of coke. then like those who were born in the late 50's grew up with the whole civil rights era. It was a damn movement! Anti war protest black panthers. I swear sometimes i would have been a black panther. I would love to walk around strapped with hundreds of other militant blacks, just consciously trying to rebuild our communities. But with our first black president in office i do think some drastic changes are coming in the next four years. Im just anxious to see what type of movement awaits this generation x.

kill Yourself...

Almost our President...

Rihanna goes like this??

I always find it interesting when females take these type of suggestive pictures. I guess they figure they are soooo freaking sexy everyone wants them females included. I know one thing no matter how sexy i feel, You want catch me groping nobody's sack. pause. There's some mysterious double standard with women. Gay shit is all gay yet two females in any sexual situation arouses me. I never really feel disgusted. 2 is better than one, but if i really think about it, the possibility of it being me is gone unless the girls go both ways. regardless if a girl fucks girls too, what does that say about her?? How many dudes has she been with? if she sleeps with dudes and girls she really is the type i won't bring home to mama. and the type i dedicate a trip to the clinic for..lls

*Song Of The Day* Marvin Gaye-Funk Me

One of my favorite musicians of all time! This song is too chill. I believe I read somewhere Marv was the first to use multi-tracking (him singing two parts). Well any way Funk me is clearly a clean way of saying Fuck me. I just discovered this version of the song. This nigga really invented the remix whole time; gotta love the genius in that! Enjoy

Funk Me (Odyssey Studios Mix, 1980) - Marvin Gaye